A Universe Inside

Greetings Old soul, It has been a while since we’ve talked, and I’d wish to reforge our strained bond; you see, I have watched you day and night, dusk and dawn yet I couldn’t help but pity the thing you’ve become.

The state is transforming, dissociating, and changing every second; time waits for no one, my friend, even me. And because you’re in the middle of it all, I urge you - o sentient being - to feel everything within before your heat dies.

The heat flows from the hot reservoir to the cold, it cannot be reversed anymore, and so you lose it gradually as the world you once knew keeps expanding then loses touch with itself.

For it is a world inside a world full of mortal joy and woe.

But that’s okay. I do not wish for you to stay the same, after all, out of billions of possibilities, you survived and came to being. Living in mundane and constant euthymia isn’t an option. Observe, interact and experience with the real things around you, maybe you’ll find answers. Remember when you showed me what you have discovered over the years? The sparkly eyes of excitement always get me, the way you keep gushing over yourself and how you came to be, the gratitude you expressed towards the One who did it all… I can go on, but it won’t express how much I’m proud of you, friend.

But now, after seeing what your own kind did, you gave up experimenting. I’ll explain why: you were led astray from the truth which steered your core, hence your current state of distress and discomfort. Then, as long as your core is intact, and, however the entropy increases, I’ll remember you always.

But bear in mind,

You are a creation in itself, you don’t create.

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